So gave some news regarding my studio space. The events of today have really put things in the past year into a different perspective for me. My art and my spirituality go hand in hand and the fact that these events came up are really no surprise to me – they are just frustrating, annoying, and beyond disappointing to deal with. However! In terms of my personal life this is how things are playing out – my heart got broken last August and I believe it jumped started a karma cycle as well as a transformation. At the beginning 2012 I feel in love. This person has touched my heart in such a way that it has transformed me in ways I could never have imagined – even heartbroken this person has transformed me. To this DAY I yearn, desire and love them despite them breaking my heart – however, they are not in my life and I cannot be with them at this time. Deep in my heart, I KNOW they feel the same, and I KNOW they will eventually come around – just not now. But I can’t go without a day thinking that I am stuck loving someone I can’t have.

In my readings, I teach that energy is elastic. Meaning if you chase something you desire or yearn – it will just keep pushing it further away from you. Which means, you have to take your mind off of something else in order for it to come bouncing back to you sooner than you expected – ESPECIALLY so when you are in a karmic cycle – the energy is a little bit more sensitive during this time. Knowing this, I channeled my anger, hurt and frustration dealing with my relationship situation into my career. I took out my frustration by applying to exhibitions to get my artwork seen and to get exposure. I took out my anger by signing onto a studio renovation project so I could channel that into something creative. I took out my hurt by working as a professional tarot reader because in order to help yourself sometimes you need to help others who are in worse conditions than you are.

I like to say that the beginning of my career began March 2013 when I had my first exhibition at Harvard Universities’ Leadership Conference in which I attended. Upon, coming back from the conference I found a playing card – the queen of hearts. This had significant meaning to me because the equivalent of this card in the tarot is the queen of cups, the character card of the person who broke my heart. Which is ironic, because the queen of cups is associated to the Goddess of Love. From that day onward, I have been sunbathing in the presence of the Goddess of Love because March is also when my karmic cycle turned again, becoming ever so slowly more positive. April, I planned a healing retreat for September in California. The next six months of my life were crazy and wonderful and stable. I got another exhibition, then another, and then I was notified of winning $2,000 for my artwork from a competition I had entered in June – here I also signed onto the studio renovation project as well. July, I had exhibited up in Montreal, then in Connecticut. Also things kept delaying during this time with the studio – we were rushing to get things done for our reception at the beginning of September. Then I went away for two weeks – Washington DC reception and then my spiritual retreat in California. The tearoom had to be closed down for a couple of weeks so I had no job when I came back from California. The tearoom reopened, then I got an interview out in Enfield, Ct for a full-time graphic design position doing print design – then I got the job, but on a 60 day contract position first. The government shutdown delaying the Smithsonian Institute exhibition. Then I was selected for a possible art residency abroad for 2014. Then the studio management collapsed and everyone’s moving out. Then I’m starting my job on Halloween, and on top of that find a living situation out there for during the week.

The wheel just turned last month in September around the Autumn Equinox. So things are already starting to get crazy and become even crazier, but in a good kinda crazy and NOT at all like what I dealt with last fall. Constant resume rejections, dealing with heartbreak, the death of my grandmother that I was close to, and my 16 year old cat. These next 6 months are going to be a POLAR opposite of that. I wouldn’t be surprised if things almost reversed themselves (except the deaths). I would be hired as a full-time graphic designer (my dream job), my lover will come back to me (ironically this job is located closer to them), my artwork will continue to move forward, and I’ll finally move out of my parents place. I can almost feel it, and totally see it in the spreads I do surrounding it. SOmething surely wicked this way comes…