Not to make this blog become “emo-centric” but its’ been about three months since I’ve had my heartbroken for the 100th time. I keep asking myself why do I even bother letting my heart feel, if its’ only ever going to end up being broken if I follow those feelings? One of the worst things in the world is still having feelings for someone who certainly doesn’t seem interested in you or at one point did, and isn’t admitting to their feelings. How do you move on from that? How do you get closure for a bond that was once so close and intimate? You can’t. You can only hope that they’ll choose to follow those feelings and come back to you. And so far its’ looking pretty bleak and its hard to say that they’ll come back; but at least the cards say they will. It doesn’t help that whenever I’m away from them it makes me miss them and want to be near them even more. Its’ becoming quite clear to me that I’m not supposed to find the love I seek in this life time and rather it seems like I’m dealing with a bad karmic cycle. Cause this isn’t the first time something like this has happened, it just gets worse and worse each time it does happen. Whatever I did in a previous life must have been pretty bad. One can only hope that they will come back one day….