nine of wands – knight.swords – two of pentacles – king of wands | Looks like some kind of conversation between a king of wands male (probably my boss). I’m gonna feel stressed some how next week. Yes, I definitely had a conversation with my boss about the menu I am redesigning.
Next Week’s Reading:
Six of cups – Three of wands – Seven of Coins – Eight of cups
Return. Longing, waiting/receiving. Frustration/Failure. Crossroads.
Since spirituality seems to be an ever increasing presence in my life, I think its about time to get an altar/meditation space. My current desktop altar isn’t cutting it. I need a space in my room that is *specifically* for meditations. I’ve been thinking about cleaning out one corner of my room that faces west. Now the religion I have only really known to use an altar is the Wiccan/Pagan religion and they align their altars to North. But my desktop and computer area is already facing north and there is no way am I going to move my desk around. My desk came with a miniature extension table to store a printer. Since I’m home from school, I’m gonna have to clean that off since its’ storing craft supplies right now and move my printer to it. Once I clean that area out I think I will have enough space for a small meditation altar.
HOWEVER, this space is facing West. So I’ve been doing research about the significance of having an altar face West and apparently there’s some significance from the eastern traditions which is perfect.
In the Buddhist tradition,
B. The Location of a Buddhist Altar
It is ideal to set up a Buddhist altar in a dedicated room. If the building is of two or more stories, it is proper to set it up on the top floor. If there is no dedicated room available, a quiet place or a room which can be closed up for quiet meditation at the regular practice time should be selected.
The orientation of a Buddhist altar depends on the main Buddha worshipped. If the practitioner majors in the Pureland school, the main Holiness should be Amitabha Buddha And hence the altar
should be oriented toward the East. In case of the Healing Buddha who eliminates misfortunes and prolongs lives, it should be orientated toward the West. (All notes below are added into the English translation by Dr. Lin. Note 1: Amitabha Buddha’s Pureland is in the West, hence the altar ideally is to be set up such that when we face Him, we are facing the West. A similar remark applies to the case of the Healing Buddha whose Pureland is in the East.) If the wall available is not of the ideal orientation, it is also fine to ignore this point. It is proper to select a wall with sufficient illumination so that it is easier for the practitioner to concentrate on gazing at the holy images .
The north doesn’t feel right to me. I just don’t seem to have any spiritual connection to the North, however, only during rituals and meditations do I face the North… I really do feel a strong pull towards to the to set up this altar.
The early Christians also faced West,
Worshippers in the courtyard could witness the sacrifices offered in front of the holy of holies, and knew that therein God dwelt behind a series of curtains, through which only the high priest could pass. Priests and people faced west toward the Presence of God, the Shekinah. With the entrance in the east, sunlight was admitted in the morning, while the structure provided a modicum of shade over the courtyard in the hot afternoon.
Most spiritualists say you should put a place that is easiest for you. Just orientate the ritual/circle to north when you are actually doing one. For some reason I seem to have a strong elemental connection to water (the element of the west) right now. Dunno why.
Upon doing more research however I found this pagan thread in a forum where someone asked the question, The Altar-is it ok to have it facing the west?
One reply really resonated with me,
Your altar should face the direction that is taught in your tradition. Usually this would be the North or the East. The West is the direction of endings, imagination, the subconscious, and dreams; I don’t know of any tradition which uses it on a regular basis.
Of course!! Subconscious, dreams, imagination, all things related to the third eye! No wonder I feel a strong connection there. But I *DO* like what other traditions say about the Presence of God being in the West. Also I get a lot of sunlight this time of year and to have it shine down on my altar would be cool. So I think that’s settled, I will put near that wall when I’ve saved enough monies for the table I’m thinking about buying.
four of pentacles – queen of cups – nine of swords – two of wands | Next week, I’ll be holding onto something, perhaps something emotional related. Something will come up and it’ll cause more worry/stress and indecision. | Well a co-worker of mine convinced me to text Kris this week. He said it was a window of opportunity – after the holiday. I’m anxiously waiting for her to text back. Its getting really ridiculous for me to keep holding on because I want to move on but something tells me I shouldn’t. The week of the 10th something is supposed to happen. I just don’t know what to do anymore and how to handle this emotionally.
nine of wands – knight.swords – two of pentacles – king of wands
Looks like some kind of conversation between a king of wands male (probably my boss). I’m gonna feel stressed some how next week.
Ever since my pineal gland has been pulsating occasionally I get random names and such pop into my head. Sometimes they mean nothing at the time, and sometimes they relate to something. As I’ve blogged about before I’ve been going through a lot of heavy emotions lately regarding a relationship that I’m expecting to blossom but I’m really in no position to be the active pursuer anymore. Real frustrating. Anyway, this week a name, Jessica, popped into my head and I thought it was weird because I haven’t been connected to any Jessicas of late. I recently joined an online social network called, Temple Illuminatus and its a bunch of people who are into the occult arts and sciences – not only that but the maturity level is decent, no fluff in other words. I posted my experience as well with a tarot reading I did on it – I never use reversals – so for some reason I felt it was necessary for me to do reversals. I haven’t been great at reading for myself lately because of all these heavy emotions clouding my intuition and judgement.
For the reading I got;
hanged man rv (shadow) – 9/wands (past) – page/cups (present) – king/cups (future) – queen/swords (highlight)
For me, the shadow represents unseen motivations in the situation and the highlight represents something clouding the situation and/or something important to be aware of in the situation.
A fellow temple member contacted me tonight about his insights into the reading and it made total sense. First he sees that the hanged man represents action in something that I don’t see having any action – something that’s been stagnated so to speak – “no more searching for answers, no more needing to wait, maturity, answers.” 9/wands in the past is someone who has been fighting their way through and trying to search for answers. Presently the page of cups is showing, in some decks the page holds a heart crystal in one hand this fellow member sees this as my intuition giving me a message from the heart (a.k.a “Jessica”). In the Future position represents the person or a person who, “responds to emotional needs, a good person to be in love with or with a relationship – compassionate – it is an answer to your prayers“. What about the queen? I asked them. “This could mean you, my friend. – You strike me as very intelligent. This person out there is very, very emotional – something that would be good for you. You might scare her away being, well, too much yourself.” Be more open? I asked. “See this queen as a shadow – yes. More your inner feelings… less talk – more on her level for now. They need this at least in the beginning. See it as a warning to still be you, but not as boldly. “ My friend continued the conversation by returning to the hanged man – “This refers to your ‘actions’ – will you take the advice once you meet this person, or will you take no action.. and blow it all away by scaring them away… without showing how emotional of a side you have. I see this as a wonderful omen.” Me too!! That’s why I asked cause it was so clear. I exclaimed. “Keep your senses open now… you need to be ready… you may have only one first impression here – or – a second chance.” After this I excitedly go search for the meaning of the name “Jessica”! Why had I never thought of the symbolic, etymological or metaphorical meaning of the name Jessica!!! Jessica \j(e)-ssi-ca\ as a girl’s name is pronounced JESS-a-kah. It is of Hebrew origin, and the meaning of Jessica is “He sees”.“YES…keep your eyes open..be ready to be YOU (from the heart)…and SEE the opportunity…and take it (Hanged Man REV)” affirmed my friend.
three of wands – eight of coins – emperor – ace of cups
I have seen the emperor represent agencies or companies that I’ve applied to in the past and having it be next to the eight of coins seems really positive to me. Ace/cups to me in the past HAS represented disappointment but it can also be overwhelming happiness. I just clarified it with the 2/cups so it could just be a new partnership at the marketing firm! Trying to not get ahead of myself here, but the three/wands could represent that I have waited a great deal finally my efforts are paying off and my ships are coming in (job). This look real positive for the office/graphic design position. We’ll see what happens. 
Well, yes, I did go to the interview with that company and did come out with a bit of disappointment because the job wasn’t exactly what I’d like to be in it was very basic graphic design and not so much conceptual design. But I did receive positive feedback from my Boss at Tearoom about my first day so that’s good. Just gotta work on my interpersonal skills with them, get back into being my old self.
four of pentacles – queen of cups – nine of swords – two of wands
Next week, I’ll be holding onto something, perhaps something emotional related. Something will come up and it’ll cause more worry/stress and indecision.
So things went really well at tearoom today. Just a bit heck tick and hopefully on Wednesday it wouldn’t be as stressful. One of the things that surprised me the most was how hard it was to focus on a person and their question for 30 minutes!! Total shock for me about how difficult it was to milk the reading. I definitely have some catching up to do and more practice. Holy wow. But I liked being there and was comfortable. I only had a one customer who was kinda rude to me either she was rude or just really uptight. So that reading was kinda draining as I tried to keep things going on but she just wouldn’t give me enough feedback to feed off of lol. Anyway I’m sure when things will get easier it’ll be better. But its nice to finally have money coming in. I’m really just amazed that the Tremont Tearoom popped into my head for a place to work and then I emailed them and two weeks later I’m working there lol. I wish a lot of things in my life were this way, but these people actually understand me and my weird quirks. 😛
I am really really hoping tomorrow’s interview will come through because I really want to move out and I found a beautiful apartment in Dorchester. Its’ spacious and awesome! I just wish that it was closer to the place I’m interviewing tomorrow, but being in Boston I’ll have plenty to do around where I guess if I move to the countryside there won’t be much to do I’ll just have to drive further, no biggie.
Things seem to be looking up and I do feel like the energies have changed a bit. And honestly I do think the solar flares this week had something to do with it.
I had another pineal session last night and information about the energy of shapes came through. Its’ not much different than qabbalah but I’ll be writing a post on it shortly.
So I went into the Tearoom again and I am officially a psychic there!!! I’m so excited. I’ve always wanted to work/be paid for my spiritual services professionally. I don’t feel comfortable charging for my services as an individual but this is with 19 other psychics so it feels more natural to me to do it this way. The owner was really impressed with my reading I did for me. The only thing he criticized was my obvious nervousness. I did tell them this was my first time reading professionally but I guess it doesn’t matter in this case. I just hope my nervousness is just from being judged and analyzed during the hiring process and it will go away once I start to relax more there. I have 14 hours and work Sundays (12 – 6pm) and Wednesdays (12 – 8pm). My mom was funny she was like, “Well you can always fake being calm“. Yes I could, but psychics tend to be generally sensitive to subtle things like that. 😉
Then one of the other psychics there when he was officiating me said, “The energy in this room feels weird. I’m gonna smudge it again. Its probably because of all the new people.” And I was like, “Sorry its probably my fault.” 😉
Temperance – queen.pents – three.coins – four.cups
Seems like a job offer will happen and a reconciliation with a practical person, someone at home maybe. Things were pretty moderate and I “reconciled” with my uncle who I hadn’t see in about a month. There was a lot going on with my career this week. I went in on Monday for the tarot interview and they offered me a position! I don’t know the details yet but I’m really excited about that one. I also have an interview at a staffing agency in Boston on Friday and an interview in Acton at a Marketing firm for an office/graphic design position. Really hoping that comes through. So this week’s reading was fairly accurate.
Next week’s –
three of wands – eight of coins – emperor – ace of cups
I have seen the emperor represent agencies or companies that I’ve applied to in the past and having it be next to the eight of coins seems really positive to me. Ace/cups to me in the past HAS represented disappointment but it can also be overwhelming happiness. I just clarified it with the 2/cups so it could just be a new partnership at the marketing firm! Trying to not get ahead of myself here, but the three/wands could represent that I have waited a great deal finally my efforts are paying off and my ships are coming in (job). This look real positive for the office/graphic design position. We’ll see what happens. 🙂
I went into Boston today to do an interview as a tarot reader at the Original Tremont Tearoom. After trying to find it for a good 15 minutes the owner had an emergency to take care of so I had to wait around until someone showed up and let everyone in. Felt very at home there despite being comfortable I was so nervous I don’t know why! The staff member that I read for kept telling me to not to be nervous lol! I did a usual reading for him and then he asked me some questions to answer intuitively. He said my readings were fair and that my intuition reading skills were stronger than my tarot reading skills. He says I would be able to do intuitive readings without cards. He also said I had a lot of potential which is really good to hear. I’ll hear Wednesday! Keeping my fingers crossed.
I had the craziest dream last night. My pineal gland was pulsating and then I had this crazy dream that I was at a party and a family friend was there. In the other room I was kissing a younger man and he then went online and bragged about it to his friends he said it was “So quick and easy”. Then the hosts’ dog came into the room and next to the dog was a ghost of a golden retriever. Dear god did he torment my intuition. He kept trying to come through to me and make me help me his presence known. He kept saying that his owner was dead and worked for public transportation and was an English gentleman kinda owner (appearance not status). The live dog was a mix between a terrier and bull dog kinda thing. I said to the family friend (male) that there was a ghost of a dog in the room and that the owner was an English gentleman who worked in public transportation (putting up signs on the side of the highway, etc). Then I left the party and the dog followed me home. I was in my computer chair closing up my computer and I felt the ghost dog in my dream then I charged at him while my chair and shrieked to get him to go away. I succeeded and I woke up with my mouth open too! The message at the end of the dream said I’d be working in a company that worked with symbolism and signs. My first thought was the Tremont Tearoom, so on Wednesday it’ll be interesting to see what comes of it.
Now I’m so tired, and overwhelmed with emotion that I just want to break down and cry. I really don’t know why I feel this way. Perhaps its because of the lack of sleep that I got from the dream since the ghost dog tormenting my intuition terrified me.
[vc_row][vc_column width=”1/2″][vc_custom_heading text=”Esoteric Meaning of our Motto: “The Way of Light“” google_fonts=”font_family:Roboto%3A100%2C100italic%2C300%2C300italic%2Cregular%2Citalic%2C500%2C500italic%2C700%2C700italic%2C900%2C900italic|font_style:400%20regular%3A400%3Anormal” el_class=”widget-title”][vc_column_text]One of the things I do as an artist or as most artists do is make the world meaningful. I look at the world through a prism of vibration, light and form which means half my time I spend reading and researching a wide variety of subjects and the other half is assimilating, hypothesizing, philosophizing the information which I then create something from it. This insight came to me in a bit of an epiphany of sorts and has led me down the rabbit hole of trying to figure out what this vision means to me and how to express it. I can explain what I do as an artist in a simple sentence, “I convey my experiences with subtle energy through my art” but even in a simple sentence like that leaves one hanging. This allows me to combine the spiritual, scientific and artistic disciplines. In fact this method of conveying experiences is not that different from what the ancient people of earth did. They conveyed scientific meaning through symbols, mythology, story lines and words. I just modernize this method. For example, as a semester project for one of the senior art classes at Moravian that I took in this previous Spring semester, I took an alternative scientific experiment and turned into an art form. This project’s objective was to photograph the life force energy of organic materials using subtle energy and exposing it onto traditional photographic black and white paper.
As an artist whose interested in the religious, spiritual and scientific side of things I am often finding myself diving into strange topics and discovering people that did incredible things that not many people are aware of and then I try and figure out how to visualize it and make it artistic. All of these interests have combined themselves into a weird artistic philosophy and I am often finding myself reading the great works of Aleister Crowley, Eliphas Levi, Manual P Hall and other great philosophers who have contributed to the development of human consciousness through distributing esoteric knowledge. I am one who believes in synchronicity and looks for the subtle hints and signs that appear in my life that help me guide my way through the chaos of the manifest world. As an artist and graphic designer I have taken interest in symbols and religious iconography and interpreting the esoteric meaning of it.
I had sadly forgotten what Moravian College’s motto was until Graduation when Dr. Gary Olsen mentioned it in his wonderful commencement speech. Something told me to take note of the motto and I’m glad I did. After graduation, I have been spending the Summer reading and researching more about this weird artistic philosophy that I have developed and one of the books I read is a book on decoding the Christian mythology and religious iconography: its called, “The Secret of Sion” and its written by William Henry. The book itself may be a bit out there for most Christians as it talks about Jesus coming to Earth through a Stargate and wormhole from a place in the center of the galaxy that is called Sion… But the author makes a fascinating case and supports his ideas and hypothesis with the religious iconography and symbols from the Christian religion we are so familiar with. If you’re wondering, yes, Henry does use Sion and Zion interchangeably. He is also a believer in synchronicity and likes to believe that Sion is a suffix of Ascension, which is a spiritual belief that the human spirit will transcend the physical and become one with God after it goes through a series of tribulations.
From the Secret of Sion, Henry states, “Our destination, says Revelation, is Sion, a mystical place that gave its name to Sion (or Zion), the sacred mountain of the Jews and to Jerusalem, although Mormons believe Sion is a place in America. Both traditions agree that only the “pure in heart” can enter and dwell in Sion. The Book of Hebrews chapter 12, verse 22-23 says Sion is “the Holy City of the living god, the heavenly Jerusalem, and (arrival there marks) our acceptance into an innumerable company of angels and just humans made perfect”. ”
Henry interprets the Christian religion through a gnostic (esoteric) point of view and says that, “For the awakened Gnostic, Christ is a being of light and the Christ narrative is an allegory of a universal internal spiritual experience, the Way of Light.[…] This is the ancient spiritual journey of the Wayshower, Jesus demonstrated. We follow (and will complete) this light path both individually and as a species…” According to modern cosmology we are taught that the Galaxy completes one rotation every 26,000 years. I personally found it very peculiar that the Moravian Star has 26 points. I would like to think that the Moravian Star is actually a symbol to represent the center of the galaxy, the Land of Light (or Heaven), or as Henry interprets as Sion.
Zinzendorf helped settle the Moravian settlements that became known as Nazareth and Bethlehem (as we know very well), he at the time was also head and apart of multiple ancient mystery schools and masonic orders. Could he have insight into the original teachings of Christianity and tried to spread its teachings and ideals when he settled Bethlehem after he broke away from the Lutherans? Zinzendorf, himself was an eager seeker after truth, and could not understand men who at all costs kept to the opinions they had once formed; yet he had an exceptional talent for taking on religious subjects even with those who differed from him (this characteristic is a big give away for anyone who may be a part of an ancient mystery school or masonic order).
Its quite possible that the Moravian faith we became so attached to today may have been an attempt to revitalize the Christian faith as it was originally. Looked at this perspective, Christianity, is really no different than other religious faiths as they all came before Christianity and was just an attempt to rejuvenate the ancient universal internal spiritual experience that humanity seems to be “destined” to complete (if you will). The British philosopher Aleister Crowley once said, “Man will no longer worship God as an external factor, as in Paganism, or as an internal state of consciousness, as in Christianity, but will realize his identity with God.” This realization (or awakening, “Ascension”) of Man’s identity with God is the first step in completing this ancient universal light path and from other sources this awakening and realization is expected to happen when the galaxy is close to completing a 26,000 year cycle. If you are well versed in your Mayan mythology, the great Mayan god, Quetzalcoatl is said to return at the end of a cycle and the beginning of the Golden Era.
If you have been keeping up with the 2012 Olympic news you might have heard somethings released about its logo in 2007. One of the speculations that’s been going around is that the 2012 Olympic logo spells “Zion”. With the knowledge you’ve hopefully learned from this article perhaps the 2012 Olympic logo was supposed to be a warning for what is coming; why the Olympic logo? It will be one of the most well known logos and if badly designed (which it was) it will attract even more attention. According to modern cosmology the galaxy is supposed to make a complete rotation this year (2012) and how appropriate is the speculation about Zion being spelled in the logo? I’d like to close saying that perhaps today’s logos and iconography from pop culture may be a system for conveying messages like the ancients once did and should be given a second look at what its’ meaning might be.
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Some people think that it must be wonderful to be able to pick up and retrieve information of future events that always prove themselves to be accurate. For me its allowed me to really help connect and understand clients and friends at a soul level. Though, with all blessings there come its burdens. Sometimes even when you are so damn sure that something may happen, that may not always be the case. Sure, as they say, the future is never set in stone. But if you’re the type that believes that things happen for a reason, these things -are- set in stone and is the reason why spiritually inclined people can pick up these events. Sometimes no matter what you do, you’ll always be faced by certain events that you may or may not be able to avoid.
Recent events made me really step back and rethink some things. I love being able to help people solve burning questions about future events through various means of divination, but to not be able to fully believe my own divination readings about my own life is definitely a down fall. I have been studying divination since a sophomore in high school. Recent events have made me really step back and reassess my abilities. Where did I go wrong? Was I too hasty?
Some things you can’t really shake off and ignore.
When I feel or see something, I know its going to happen one way or another. I often talk about how I utilize my third eye in my artwork and how recently when I was working on the H.E logo I for some reason couldn’t get the artwork to how I saw it in my third eye. Perhaps I should’ve taken that as a sign. I have been emotionally distressed this summer between job searching, moving back to this horrid town, fighting for my independence with my parents, and dealing with separation anxiety from the people I love and care about from college. Its been one heck of an emotional rollercoaster. Today’s events, while may have pained me a little, I’m glad happened. Now I have some closure and can move on if need be. If what I felt and saw will eventually happen so be it. But now, only until I have a window of opportunity will I ever act on a premonition or some result from divination. Also I hate being toyed with emotionally which is another reason all together why I’ve completely avoided relationships my entire life.
I wanted to do a cymatics setup for awhile now. I was gonna try to do one for my self-portrait in Intro to Photography and use a song I wrote so I could visualize the notes. But I didn’t have time and ended up doing something much simpler but turned out very well in the end. Coupled with this project I also wanted to work with the sonoluminescence experiment which turns sound into light. Maybe something interesting will out out of these. Both projects are about visualizing sound in its inefficiency.
