So I went into the Tearoom again and I am officially a psychic there!!! I’m so excited. I’ve always wanted to work/be paid for my spiritual services professionally. I don’t feel comfortable charging for my services as an individual but this is with 19 other psychics so it feels more natural to me to do it this way. The owner was really impressed with my reading I did for me. The only thing he criticized was my obvious nervousness. I did tell them this was my first time reading professionally but I guess it doesn’t matter in this case. I just hope my nervousness is just from being judged and analyzed during the hiring process and it will go away once I start to relax more there. I have 14 hours and work Sundays (12 – 6pm) and Wednesdays (12 – 8pm). My mom was funny she was like, “Well you can always fake being calm“. Yes I could, but psychics tend to be generally sensitive to subtle things like that. 😉
Then one of the other psychics there when he was officiating me said, “The energy in this room feels weird. I’m gonna smudge it again. Its probably because of all the new people.” And I was like, “Sorry its probably my fault.” 😉
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Bead Mandala
Energies that move the body
The energies that move the body are the energies that move the imagination. These energies, then, are the source of mythological imagery; in a mythological organization of symbols, the conflicts between the different organic impulses within the body are resolved and harmonized. You might say a mythology is a formula for the harmonization of the energies of life.
Joseph Campbell, interviewed by Joan Marler, Nov./Dec. 1987
Tremont Tearoom
I went into Boston today to do an interview as a tarot reader at the Original Tremont Tearoom. After trying to find it for a good 15 minutes the owner had an emergency to take care of so I had to wait around until someone showed up and let everyone in. Felt very at home there despite being comfortable I was so nervous I don’t know why! The staff member that I read for kept telling me to not to be nervous lol! I did a usual reading for him and then he asked me some questions to answer intuitively. He said my readings were fair and that my intuition reading skills were stronger than my tarot reading skills. He says I would be able to do intuitive readings without cards. He also said I had a lot of potential which is really good to hear. I’ll hear Wednesday! Keeping my fingers crossed.
I had the craziest dream last night. My pineal gland was pulsating and then I had this crazy dream that I was at a party and a family friend was there. In the other room I was kissing a younger man and he then went online and bragged about it to his friends he said it was “So quick and easy”. Then the hosts’ dog came into the room and next to the dog was a ghost of a golden retriever. Dear god did he torment my intuition. He kept trying to come through to me and make me help me his presence known. He kept saying that his owner was dead and worked for public transportation and was an English gentleman kinda owner (appearance not status). The live dog was a mix between a terrier and bull dog kinda thing. I said to the family friend (male) that there was a ghost of a dog in the room and that the owner was an English gentleman who worked in public transportation (putting up signs on the side of the highway, etc). Then I left the party and the dog followed me home. I was in my computer chair closing up my computer and I felt the ghost dog in my dream then I charged at him while my chair and shrieked to get him to go away. I succeeded and I woke up with my mouth open too! The message at the end of the dream said I’d be working in a company that worked with symbolism and signs. My first thought was the Tremont Tearoom, so on Wednesday it’ll be interesting to see what comes of it.
Now I’m so tired, and overwhelmed with emotion that I just want to break down and cry. I really don’t know why I feel this way. Perhaps its because of the lack of sleep that I got from the dream since the ghost dog tormenting my intuition terrified me.
First Snowfall
Um gross. First snowfall of the season. What happened to my fall weather? oh right it became 65-75 degree weather. -pouts-
Well, in other news we had to put down my 16-year old cat on Monday. He had a seizure attack on Saturday night. I found him in the kitchen and I will never forget that disturbing sight of him like that. Its been a very difficult past three months and I sure hope to god something good comes my way soon. I’m really surprised I haven’t fallen into any kind depression between my grandma dying, my heart breaking and now my life long family pet being put down. But I suppose the hope of a certain situation changing as well as a job possibility (I just got a response and but no interview yet) its keeping me looking to the future.
But its been really really difficult, especially when a certain someone keeps appearing in my dreams and causing me to wake up in a crappy mood. I want to feel alive again instead of just surviving and living the days and nights out. With all these heavy emotions its not really motivating me to do much lately.
Oh yeah and President Obama is reelected just like my cards said he would. I got as cards: page/swords – world – 5.chalices – ace.wands – 6.chalices. Pretty close race though I would say and I just remembered that I had screen capped a website design that I did around when President Obama was elected for the first time. So much has changed in the 4 years we had him, hmm! I wonder how much will change again in the next four years. This website design I created as a freshman, and I certainly would say that my web design design skills have gotten a lot better. 😉
Potions and Meals in a Jar
You never know when inspiration may hit. It could be at the dentist (like Yaron Schoen) or simply taking a break from life and playing video games on your ipod. A friend of mine earlier this week asked for ideas on how to make all their weekly meals in one day. I then referred to them to the meals in a jar concept. I had been inspired by the allure of potions for awhile now and I kept wondering how to incorporate this allure into my design work. While playing “pocket potions” on my ipod it hit me! Cooking has often been associated with the concept of “Alchemy” (taking one thing and transmuting it into another thing). I thought about how potions are kept in bottles and meals are now kept in jars/bottles, why not combine the two! SO that’s what I came up with, meals-in-a-jar/bottle with the aesthetic appeal to a potion bottle. So now off to think of a name, and logo.
I must also be feeling better, or at least relaxing better. I haven’t had an idea this “big” since I graduated from college. I’ve just been feeling so rotten lately I guess my mental state was too foggy to relax enough to get ideas flowing.
first potion bottle from TheStrokeofMidnight via etsy
Natick Open Studios
Today I went to the Natick Open Studios with my mom. It was cool to see local artists and to see what they’re showcasing. A lot of it was handcraft work so; jewelry, silversmith, pottery, mosaics, etc. There was photography and painting too. I always enjoy seeing open studios as it inspires me to keep continuing to focus on my own work. It also made me realize that since my grandmother isn’t around anymore to make jewelry for, I have so many beading supplies left that I really got to do something with. I’ve been meaning to use them up and I suppose that since I’m unemployed doing jewelry all the time wouldn’t be such a bad thing. Perhaps I could also make enough to sell. But it was 73 degrees and sunny today (and its October 20th!!) perfect weather to go to building to building to see artwork. I even met a painter who got a degree at Cedar Crest! Who knew! We were laughing because we always had the problem around here saying that we went to a “small liberal arts college in Pennsylvania” because not many people knew the school, but not this time!
Seven Cosmic Laws = Seven Design Principles
I began the second rewrite of my book since I have a better way of organizing it. I’m still debating whether or not to make this book simple and to the point, making it more of an art book with text, or a book that is basically a research paper that’s been published. Many of the books are of this format, taking a concept/thesis and then expanding it and backing it up with research. Unfortunately, a lot of the time the information gets recycled and is written about in different ways. I just finished Tuning the Diamonds: Electromagnetism and Spiritual Evolution by Susan Rennison and it was very similar to David Wilcock’s The Source Field Investigations. Although I suppose the point is that I learned something new from both books. Anyway, I’m leaning towards the art book model because the book is about design principles being applied to the universe; macrocosmically.
While researching this past week, I wondered if the esoteric tradition had anything like principles or laws about the cosmos that they followed. Sure enough, the Hermetic tradition has 7 so-called Cosmic laws, and amazingly so they mirror or match the seven design principles I’m working off of! SO I have rewrote my book to be outlined via these laws/principles and I am going to find the research that backs up these laws and put them into these laws/categories. I think that’s the best way to go about this book, since its so complicated in its’ nature. How do you make a model of the universe easy to read and comprehend to those who can’t see inside your brain?
Below is what I have summarized about these laws in my book’s intro:
According to the esoteric Hermetic tradition there are seven cosmic laws. Eerily they mirror or equal the seven design principles that I have applied macrocosmically. These seven cosmic laws are; the principle of SPIRIT (space), the principle of Cause and Effect = Karma (balance); the principle of correspondence or analogy (contrast); the principle of resonance or attraction (emphasis); the principle of Harmony and balance (harmony and proportions); the principle of rhythm or vibration (movement); the principle of Polarity and Sexuality (unity).
I got so very excited!
Moving on…?

Not to make this blog become “emo-centric” but its’ been about three months since I’ve had my heartbroken for the 100th time. I keep asking myself why do I even bother letting my heart feel, if its’ only ever going to end up being broken if I follow those feelings? One of the worst things in the world is still having feelings for someone who certainly doesn’t seem interested in you or at one point did, and isn’t admitting to their feelings. How do you move on from that? How do you get closure for a bond that was once so close and intimate? You can’t. You can only hope that they’ll choose to follow those feelings and come back to you. And so far its’ looking pretty bleak and its hard to say that they’ll come back; but at least the cards say they will. It doesn’t help that whenever I’m away from them it makes me miss them and want to be near them even more. Its’ becoming quite clear to me that I’m not supposed to find the love I seek in this life time and rather it seems like I’m dealing with a bad karmic cycle. Cause this isn’t the first time something like this has happened, it just gets worse and worse each time it does happen. Whatever I did in a previous life must have been pretty bad. One can only hope that they will come back one day….
Repertoire of the Cosmos
I read everything I can get my hands on about the cosmos these days. Some of it is pure fiction but some of it has a good vibration and reads as non-fiction. I seem to be attracting more and more people who claim that they are not of this world and need guidance in learning what this feeling means. I have never felt like I was “apart” of this world (if that makes sense) I was always much more mature than my generation and could never really connect to my generation and only to those who are a bit older than I was. I didn’t mind, as I hated drama anyway. Its always weird trying to tell someone you’re close to that you’ve had this otherworldly feeling about yourself since childhood and could never fully explain it, so the internet has help lots in finding like minded people and it seems like more and more people are “waking up” realizing that they too may not be from this world. There is a reason! The major consensus is that earth is undergoing energetic changes and these changes if not gently handled, would have significant problems for humans, energetically. Therefore, higher evolved beings are called to be reincarnated onto earth to balance out these energies and this is why we are sometimes confronted with children who are wise beyond their years, simply because they are! at least their spirit. Anyway, I was one of these children and since childhood I had become determined to figure out what this feeling is and why I am feeling it. Some odd 10 years later I am grateful to have been so determined to finding out otherwise I may not have had that spiritual awakening or found myself better. I have only begun reading more into this after my spiritual awakening as it made me believe that I am seriously being pulled in a specific direction in my life! Sounds crazy I know, but I don’t know how else to explain it. Anyway, here is a repertoire of the cosmos I have started to put together and will continue to add to it once I finish reading a book, watching a documentary or reading an article! >> Repertoire of the Cosmos
While reading Tuning the Diamonds I came across a Hindu phrase and I am seriously adopting it once my research become more established, “Paramanu – beyond the atom”. How perfect for a lab that investigates phenomenon beyond the physical??
Weekly Tarot Reading 05
5.pents – 9.chalices – moon – 2.pents
hardship – wishes – confusion -decision
Well yes reading this way seems to be better. There was definitely more hardships and hardcore wishing going on. I also had a lot of premonitions/dreams this week (moon) and the decision pointed to what to do about the family bible since I personally thought no one claimed it. But apparently someone may have a connection to it.
Next week’s reading:
5.pentacles – knight.swords – ace.cups – six.swords
Hardships – message/conversation – expressing an emotion – move, travel, distance
Funny how 5/pents came up again. Its been really present cause I am indeed going through a hard time. I am in limbo in so many places in my life and its stressing me out. I also just want to move out really bad 🙁 anyway, the five/pents here could mean that I may get help from and outside source (knight.swords) that will make me happy? and it will cause me to be able to move forward and away from something.
Have you ever just really, really, missed someone and you’ve tried everything you can do to distract you but all you can do is think about them? Its making it really hard to move on if all you can do is think about them. I so much want things to get better but as each day goes on and I don’t hear from this person and/or hear from a job opportunity I get more and more convinced that I won’t go anywhere in life and that’s just sad. 🙁
Working with life-form archetypes
Did not write this copied from a PDF
On June 15th 1989 the Swiss company “CIBA-GEIGY” (Basel) got an European patent (No.0351357): without genetic modifications, just with electrostatic fields they can create fossil forms of fish, fern, mushroom …today nobody remembers these experiments anymore…
BACKWARDS IN EVOLUTION:
Heinz Schürch, who watched over the experiments until 1992, shows us some pictures with strange looking plant archetypes of wheat and corn.
The wheat doesn’t grow high, it crawls on the ground, just the tip of the culms (where the spikes are) grows =20cm high.
The corn looks more like the modern corn we know today although it’s much smaller and it has not only two big but up to eight little corncobs growing out of the stem.
The amazing thing is: these archetypes were grown out of grains of the modern plants.
It’s no alchemy or gene technology, it’s just experimenting with plants and electrostatic fields (stress fields, no electric current).
Electric current, would produce a direct biochemical alteration, an electrostatic field does not.
Test arrangement:
Aluminum Plate |
Wheat or corn For three days |
Aluminum Plate |
direct current between the two of them |
After three days the grains grow in a pot or a greenhouse like every other plant.
These three days at the beginning of the germination process are enough to set the archetypes.
Electrostatic fields are regulative fields. Nature comes out of chaos; it needs regulative structures to manifest something. This is the idea behind it; a certain electrostatic field brings a certain structure into nature, that’s what we know out of the experiments. But we do not know of any legalities so far. We cannot tell how strong a field it needs (electric field strength) to go back to a certain time in evolution. We don’t even know how it really works. Our theory is, that the plants in the field get information, which makes them go back to the archetypes i.e. the wheat remembers it once was a grass. (In Peru you still can find this type of wheat). “The “new-old” wheat contains new” etc.
This type of wheat could be used in regions where there is a short spring and summer (the modern wheat couldn’t grow there at all): you wouldn’t need to use pesticides or herbicides.
The pest cycle is the same as the one of the modern wheat life.
They would not yet be developed when the “new-old “ wheat is already harvested after 4 to 8 weeks.
The germination rate of the grains is much higher as well.
The “new-old” species could be used to grow plants, which are healthier and more resistant to pests (cross with modern plants).
FERNS:
Heinz Schürch shows us a bowl with something green in it. A look under the microscope reveals “seedlings” of a fern-archetype. They have grown much longer under an electrostatic field than the wheat or the corn. They stayed in the field for approximately one month: the bowl has been kept closed for three years.
These “seedlings” (protallium) are important for the reproduction of ferns. Today there is only one “seedling” per fern-leaf, which becomes pubescent. The other ones are falling to the ground and die. The “seedlings” of this “ur-fern” behave different. They are all connected through a grid-type network. That’s the reason that there is more then one “seedling” which is able to become pubescent. Still we don’t know exactly how this network works. A close look with the microscope shows us this amazing network. The connections between the single “seedlings are always the shortest possible way. It almost looks like somebody created it with the intention to save material. The tubes between the heart-shaped plants are ultra-thin, very straight and are shining, silvery.
There is no information about these tubes in any scientific literature. We assume they are used to transmit information between these plants. But we don’t have a clue what kind of information this could be. More secrets are to be found in the growing process of the fern itself. The “seeding” of a common worm fern grew into another type of fern after being in the electrostatic field. Instead of pinnate leafs it had rounded ones (like tongues). Since these leafs are known from fossils, the new-old fern was named “Ur-fern” (ancient fern). The spores of the ancient fern were examined and they didn’t show any similarities with “modern” ferns. Scientists still didn’t believe in the possibility of altering plants by use of an electrostatic field.
In the following years the ancient fern grew different leafs every year, it nearly looked like, the fern remembered that it was created out of a worm fern. It seemed that the fern was going through the whole process of evolution in his growing process. We examined all it’s new spores, they were all the same. But out of them grew different kinds of ferns. There were: worm ferns, beach fern, some south African leather ferns, …The ancient fern seemed to be able to develop every kind of fern. The biggest surprise awaited us, when we came to analyze the chromosomes. The worm fern had 36, another one had 41. In all of scientific literature we never heard of anything like this. Another amazing, new, not- fern-like thing was, that every evening the fern would emit scents.
Many ferns are dying out these days. That makes the ciba-Geigy-experiments extra valuable. For example in Germany there are more than 12% endangered fern-species. Ferns are extremely sensitive to environmental pollution. A possible explanation (the reason for that) might be, that the atmosphere of the earth used to be different back in the days when ferns ruled the world. There were more and stronger thunderstorms and the electric fields in the earth’s atmosphere changed often. It could be, that every time we use an electrostatic field with the ferns, we create a condition of a time long ago when this field did exist. But this is only a theory.
If I can change the set of chromosomes and grow ancient (long dead) plants just by using a simple electrostatic field, I have to pronounce the question whether all the information about the shape of creatures is really in the genes, the DNA, the nucleus? I think the electrostatic charging of the atmosphere is also a factor.
The memory of nature seems to go back to the very beginnings of life. BRINGING BACK THE SAURIANS?
Out of a drilling-core, which came from depths of 140m. In a 200 million year old Rhine- salt-mine, was taken a probe. Analyzing this probe under a microscope shows us bazaar crystal forms out of which grows tiny creatures. These are mushrooms, which came back into life through an electrostatic field. All experiments to bring them back without the field didn’t work out.
Heinz Schürch shows us a patent, the only announcement of the company in which they talk about the electrostatic fields.
We didn’t want to experiment with plants only but also with animals. But we got the strict instruction not to mess with the germ line of animals. That’s why we thought of taking the eggs of a rainbow trout and put them into a field for four weeks after their impregnation. After four weeks we put them into aquariums and raised them. The result are fish, which are much stronger and robust than our rainbow trout. They have more teeth and a different color. Grown males have a hook-jaw (like wild salmons). They behave wilder and more aggressive. We needed to heighten the fence around the aquarium because the fish would jump higher. They are an archetype of our trout’s, dead since 150 years (they were identified with the aid of old drawings).
The flesh of the fish is firmer and more delicate. The fish are more resistant to disease. That’s why there is no need to put antibiotics or pesticides into the water. There is a standing joke in the company about bringing back the dinosaurs.
Heinz Schürch: “It is just a joke. I wouldn’t dare do it. You can’t control a dinosaur. We would just have to use bird-eggs, for the birds are the descendants of the saurian.
But we don’t even know how these fields are working.”
Answers to this question will still have to wait, as the CIBA-GEIGY-team doesn’t exist anymore.
EUROPEAN PATENT APPLICATION Improved Fish-Farming
A new procedure is described, based on the short-term application of electrostatic fields, which results in useful and desirable qualities of fish.
Description:
Aquariums (insulator) with fish-eggs are put between two electrodes of a capacitor. The direct voltage can vary from 1 to a couple of 10000 volts.
Because there is no electric current, the chemical identity of the system “fish” is not altered.
The eggs stay in the field until the “little” fish start to slip. Then they are brought into bigger aquariums and raised. These fish are more vital and grow up earlier than the ones, which were not put into an electrostatic field. The most used voltage varies between 100- 10000V(most special: 300-3000V) the distance between the electrodes depends on the size of the aquarium, but preferable it should be between 1-10cm.