Every year I like to do a yearly wrap-up of everything I’ve accomplished or did. And in the new year, do a post on my new goals and dreams for the year.

January

I connected with American Craftsman Galleries, and while they are an official client of mine, the work promised hadn’t really gone anywhere.

February

I signed onto Oranum, a living streaming website for psychic readings. This venture turned out to be more time consuming that it is worth. But I actually do miss doing this, and plan to get back into it eventually once my apartment is setup.

March

I connected with clients Alcon Lighting and About Africa. The later one turned out to be much more work than I could handle and it started at the time that I have my current job. I also established a business relationship with a local printer, which has made my printing services a lot easier to manage.  I had an interview in Montague, MA which ended up falling through but could explore western Mass a bit more.

April

I was hired at River Valley Co-op and I traveled to Putney, VT for a photoshoot.

May

I had no posts documented for May, but I moved to Amherst temporarily before finding my own place.

June

I joined the PVMA – Pioneer Valley Mycological Association and went on several walks. Which included West Chesterfield and Northampton. I also started to go to Brattleboro, VT for darkroom services and made a new set of kirlian images for the first time since Italy. I worked on a food photoshoot for a small Maple Farm in Worthington, MA that was for a cookbook.

July

I drove to Goshen, CT for the New England Balloon Festival to meet up with my New England GLT friends. PVMA had a microscopy workshop.

August

I scheduled a solo show at Northampton City Hall. I also scheduled my first PR trip to Mount Tremper, NY. I bought a microscope and started experimenting with it and taking microscopy images. I went to New Paltz, NY and had my first aura photograph taken. I signed on two clients, Bowflex Barbie Fitness and Kathmandu Infosys.

September

I went on my first PR trip to Mount Tremper, NY and to Emerson Resort and Spa. I was accepted into the Quantive Fluorescent Microscopy intensive course at MDI Biological laboratory for next May. I also ended my longest-standing client relationship of 2.5 years. I attempted to have a fundraiser for the work I’m doing for the Smithsonian Environmental Research Center.

October

I scheduled a PR trip to Switzerland for July of 2018 and traveled to London, England for a week.

November

I had the exhibition for SPE Northeast Conference Group Exhibition and a staff exhibition at River Valley Co-op.

December

So far, I have no posts for December. I have my travel scheduled from January to August of next year and I am excited for what next year brings.

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While doing my asparagus series, I used the same technique of arranging the objects in my “Olivio” piece that was inspired by fortune telling and the infiorata art form. I had chosen the below image to be included in my portfolio and was unsure of if it reflected the coherence of the portfolio since right away I didn’t see anything meaningful.

While meditating recently on an issue, I began to feel drawn once again to my runes. I had uncovered them in my plethora of boxes from my move and started to use them again. Using runes is a lot like using the ‘stick and bones’ method of divination (throwing them on the ground and picking up ones that you feel drawn to and/or form some sort of significance).

It totally dawned on me that the unintentional arrangement of the asparagus in the image is a reverse image of the rune; Kenaz.  It is a German word for ‘kien’ which literally translates to pine or fir tree. In old English the meaning refers to a torch made from a pine tree. Other linguistic ties to this word brings the meaning of the rune to more light. The Scottish term “ken” means to know something. Furthermore the German root “kan” means to generate something. Kenaz has a connection with knowledge, illumination, as well as fire and heat.

With the above meaning, Kenaz therefore means flame, a spark of light or illumination and reversed it means a dwindling flame or spark of light, to not give up on a dream, a source of inspiration is petering out, a sense of giving up. This piece was created back in June, just after starting a new job, a new chapter in a my life and at the time was thinking of certain situations in my life. It’s funny that now almost 6 months later it’s meaning has surfaced at a pertinent time where the meaning makes sense.

Reference: http://elderfutharkrunes.blogspot.com/2010/11/kenaz.html

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Last Thursday I held a first ever fundraiser event for the collaborative project I have established with the Smithsonian Environmental Research Center and the North American Orchid Conservation Center. It was a first ever for me, but not first ever event. Unfortunately, we did not get as many people as we expected, nor raised as much as we expected. However, the event was had, the project was launched and a building block was built.

September was also a very challenging time for me, personally. SO much went wrong, that it actually blew my mind. For the first time in my project history things just did not pan out. No matter how much work I put into these projects and events, it either just altogether not end up happening or it was half-assed and the available resources in putting together these projects and events failed. I lost a lot of money and emotional energy, and for the month of August I was excited for this month to be my way of breaking into the community here; establishing connections, resources, and building a new community and strengthening the one I have already built. Well none of the above really happened. I pushed forward to prove the people in my circles that I could pull off the above yet the surrounding community didn’t pull through and it still failed.

At the beginning of the month, I had my first solo exhibition in Northampton and the Hampshire County. I was pretty excited that it came together so quickly. Had scheduled the dates for installation and reception times. Ordered the printed materials, only to be met with a last minute change in the duration of the exhibition as well as setup. Lost money in the printed materials as well as taking time off from work to install. I ended up setting up the following week, with the reception the following day. I had done postcards, online promotion, flyer distribution for the opening reception and City Hall failed to open the building on reception day so the 30-60 people I was expecting both of which of personal and non-personal contacts didn’t show, only one of my good friends came because she and her partner were already in the area and I had to let her into City Hall!

Fast forward to the following weekend. I had spent the last 3.5 years building a following in the travel and lifestyle categories and a social media reach to be able to work with hotel and resorts to promote travel, their destinations and residencies. I had connected with a photographer on Model Mayhem in Mount Tremper, NY area where I was scheduled to stay at Emerson Resort and Spa. Doing complimentary stays and media trips are a huge reward for hard work in building a blog and following. However, the photographer did not pull his weight and deliver the photos. He put a huge ass watermark and left the images unusable for digital and print publication regardless of explaining to him explicitly in email and in person over lunch the reasoning to not have watermarks in a collaboration. He took the entire project and made it about himself, used my comped room as a set for his following and acted like he had a lot of reactivity to his posts while on location when he didn’t. While in a Facebook live, he said “my room” when it was actually mine, and he wasn’t staying at the resort. People wonder why I have to or am used to doing everything myself, and this is why. As a freelancer/individual, sometimes I can’t trust anyone to carry through a vision.

I think it will take me some time to recover from this month and reassess what I did get out of the above, and how to milk the above to create a transmutation into something positive. While I do have a fear of failure, I do not believe in failure as there are many outcomes and possibilities in this universe. The mind just has to be open enough to attract it.