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Weekly Tarot Reading 03
Recap: Last week….. [ It looks like something that I’ve been persevering that didn’t seem to be going anywhere will all of the sudden become alive again. It looks like the person that will cause this is a Queen/Chalices person who represents a “soul mate” presence in my life. They’re going to seek planning and executing a commitment of some sort.] am I really becoming that in accurate ??? What I expected to happen didn’t this week. Two weeks in a row I predicted the same thing. I wonder if its telling me more than what I should be picking up during the week.
WELL going back and looking at my week, it the cleaning out the garage could be the project that “suddenly” became alive again. Maybe the q/c person was me cause I’ve been quite emotional lately.
Hmm. Anyway here’s next week’s:
6/swords – 8/chalices – world – knight chalices
SIGH. it looks like I’ll be moving forward with something. Something will come to an end by a message with good/romantic intentions. Again, this can only point to one thing and one thing only, but after the last two fails of predicting it, I doubt it will be this week. But who knows, I’m not really sure how else to predict it. Perhaps it’ll mean something else.
This week I didn’t do much… I went to the gym, got banned from my favorite tarot forum, and cleaned out the garage and racked the yard. I drew the Queen/Pentacles as a daily card today with the Holy Light deck. I was definitely a queen of the material world today. Eh. I hope my skills aren’t sliding through my fingers. Trying to find other things to focus on and take short break from tarot.
Abstract Light
The mystic is coming out…Saw this abstract light on my ceiling today and realized it was light reflecting off of plastic packaging. I think I know what my next art project will be.
Jewelry Collection: Bracelets
So I inherited my grandma’s jewelry collection her older things as well as the stuff I made her. Here are the bracelets.
Mine
I went to clean out my grandma’s house and it was probably one of the hardest things I have done/will do. Not only because her stuff is being divided up and it won’t be in its’ proper place anymore, but certain members of my family can’t seem to get out of their bubbles. When someone dies, you want to respect their life, not look at their possessions and ask yourselves if you personally need the item or not but rather if the item meant to someone else or meant to the person who died. If we weren’t there, there would’ve been a lot of distress over some of the items that were thrown out/given away.
You don’t go into a dead persons’ house and ask yourself, “OK what do I need?” You go in there and ask, “Is this significant? Does this have any value (sentimental or monetary)? Should this stay in the family?” and not descend upon the possessions as if there was no discussion on it and take them. They were never yours so why should you feel the right to decide whether its’ yours or not?
There were these blue and white dishes that my grandma used and my cousin wanted them because she entertained. I get that, but I had my “eye” on them too, because my family came over to her house more often than they did and drank coffee out of them. Thankfully she was willing to negotiate and gave me half the teacup set. That’s another thing, the other half of my family lived further away and weren’t always at my grandma’s place. If it boiled down to anything, my family should have the final say in her things because we were there most frequent.
That’s another thing, they had little to no regard of any of the possessions that my grandma sentimentally valued herself. They just couldn’t seem to grasp the concept of sentimental value. Just because the object was, let’s say – bought at the Christmas Tree Shop – that doesn’t mean that that particular object had sentimental or personal value to the person who owned it.
And another thing that pisses me off is that they had little to no regard about my family’s history. My grandma was Swedish and came to the US via Ellis Island. She married my grandfather and had three sons (my father and two uncles). Swedish items such as red wooden painted items and straw Christmas ornaments were a significant part of the family and Christmas was a big holiday in my family so a lot of the Christmas stuff had a lot of sentimental value to them, which they did recognize but they could careless about the Swedish items. Thankfully they weren’t thrown out by the time I got to them and was able to save quite a few of them. It ended up being a “do or die” scenario and it really hurt us to see the way they acted towards my grandmothers’ possessions. I only “wanted” a couple of her possessions and mostly thought about the sentimental value that they had to them. Not whether or not that I needed the item personally. They kept asking me about certain items, and while I would’ve liked them, I don’t have the space for them, but no that didn’t matter at all.
Shallow and selfish people are exhausting. I love my other family, but sometimes I wish they shared a similar perspective that we did.
Today, I drew the Hierophant of my Holy Light deck. This card speaks of tradition and being conservative. But it also speaks of the duality between life and death, materialism and spirituality. I definitely think we saw a lot of dualism here. People working together but being in two different worlds. Thinking materialistically and thinking spiritually. I’m just glad the worst seems to be over… but it was a real headache to work with them.
The irony of it all is that my grandmother was the most selfLESS person in my family. She was known for doing the right thing and the right thing would be to give the possession to someone who had a lot of meaning attached to it or to keep it in our family. She wouldn’t have kept it for herself, but rather would have thought about the people around her and their opinions.
(PS: if any family member finds this, I hope this doesn’t offend, its my blog anyway)
Weekly Tarot Reading 02
Recap: So what I expect to happen this week from the previous reading didn’t happen. So I’m not too sure what that reading was pointing to. Maybe this week’s energies were just so all over the place that it was difficult to read. Anyway here’s next week’s reading:
knight of pentacles (c: 9/wands) – magician (c: 4 of wands) – king of pentacles (c: Queen of Chalices)
Oracle card: Magical Map Shifter (soul mate presence)
It looks like something that I’ve been persevering that didn’t seem to be going anywhere will all of the sudden become alive again. It looks like the person that will cause this is a Queen/Chalices person who represents a “soul mate” presence in my life. They’re going to seek planning and executing a commitment of some sort.
Bad Luck; go away!
On top of relationship drama I’ve been dealing with, my grandmother passed away unexpectedly Wednesday. I did a tarot reading using the Holy Light deck the day of her scare and it predicted death. This is one reason why I sometimes don’t like doing divination because I read things that sometimes I wish I didn’t need read and now I’m wondering if I could’ve made her live a little longer – somehow; that’s what’s haunting me right now. I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way, but.. I didn’t acknowledge it at the time because usually we’re taught that the death card doesn’t usually represent death (unless it is in the right situation, the right time, etc)… I looked at the reading and thought, A death is something I can’t deal with right now and I hope to God that reading is wrong. Well it was right. So I am going to play my harp at the funeral tomorrow I will be playing Jesu Joy of Man’s Desiring by Bach actually it’ll be a arrangement I did for the harp nothing too fancy just the lower octave strain coupled with arpeggios and the refrain…
But all that’s going through my head, is… when will all this bad luck end? Constantly being rejected from potential employers, and the confusion, hurt, stress and anxiety I’ve been dealing with not knowing where I stand in a relationship and now a death… seriously life can’t you be a bit more kind to me?
Weekly Tarot Reading 01
Since I can’t seem to keep up with a daily tarot reading (shame on me…) I’ll do a weekly one. They’re more insightful anyway.
What’s coming up for me this week?
Five of Swords – Page of Wands – Strength – Nine of Swords – Temperance
Worrying about a dispute that seems to be in the past. A message of passion, strength and reconciliation. There seems to be two sides of this, the worry and dispute and the passion, message, strength and reconciliation. The later is the stronger one. My god, is it what I think will happen? It seems like this page will end my worries. I think I know what this is pointing to. If so a big YAY!
Shroom Magic
Photoshop – background photographed by me
Found this shroom growing outside my families’ beach house. Thought it would look nice with some photoshop magic 🙂 It felt nice to just do creative work again. I’ve been feeling kinda low. Been dealing with a bad rejection as well as being constantly rejected from jobs doesn’t do well on my creative spirit. I’m trying to maintain some stability but its been difficult. I just want my life again.
Photoshop – background photographed by me
Time-Space Physics
I am almost finished with The Source Field Investigations by David Wilcock. I must say, I really enjoyed the read. I also was surprised how I agreed with most of what he said about the source field being Einstein’s “Holy Grail” i. E the Unified Field Theory. THOUGH, the only thing I don’t agree with is his take on gravity. He says gravity is a force within the Source Field. I don’t think this is the case. I think gravity is the reason why things are the way we view them, in space-time, if we flip gravity, we will be in time-space.
He has also opened my eyes into investigating the Time-Space parallel reality of Space-time. See the problem here folks is that mainstream scientists focus on the space-time science of things, however, it seems individuals are breaking into the time-space side of things and this obviously is upsetting the status quo. Thus contradictions, and suppression of amazing technology. We must be open to the idea of a parallel reality that is opposite entirely in nature to the space-time we’re so familiar with.. Time-space to me is where all the weird paranormal activities originate from. These anomalies pop over into space-time and we see them, but they are of time-space origin.
Wilcock helped me realize that the Golden mean may be in fact what we need to make matter be time-space material. The vibration or geometry to make matter atoms pop into time-space. Earlier I posted about in putting the Golden Mean in E = Mc2 it just occurred to me that may perhaps be a clue to turning everything into time-space material. Speeding things up so they enter Time-space. I’m thinking mysticism may in fact be the time-space science and that is why it doesn’t react the same in the space-time reality because once upon a time it was time-space and so the science worked, but the galaxy flipped over into space-time and so that knowledge is outdated. This also backs up my assertion that the Golden Mean spirals are expressions of light. They are coming directly from time-space and popping over into space-time. And their signature is a spiral.
Doe Deere – the “Oh so unique and different” makeup enthusiast
I am someone whose been naturally labeled as “unique and different”. Someone who goes with the beat of her own drum. I could care less about conforming to any set of customs or rules, but I respect them. It always baffles me when there are “internet personalities” who try to be unique and different by expressing themselves through music, art, fashion, makeup, or any kind of material discipline. They express themselves through blogging and sharing things that are close and dear to them. I don’t understand why anyone would want to put themselves out there so much to be subjected to “social rejection”. I experienced a lot of “social rejection” growing up and it is an awful thing to experience. WHY would you WANT to be unique and different when you can be who you are? Are you so afraid of who you are that you try to be someone else? (i’ve experienced this too)
The high school I went to there was such a stigma to be cool, act like you had money, and be preppy. I often saw conformity in action. I actually to pride in being unique and different and while it was hard at time to be so I couldn’t see myself conforming and turning preppy. When you become the people who you hang out with. Frankly, it was quite disgusting. I even had a friend copy ME and denied everything when I confront him about it. I asked him why he was copying my attitude and personality. He never really answered me. To say the least we’re not friends anymore; we ended the friendship because he ignorantly called my beliefs at the time weird and it pissed me off.
Anyway, I met Doe Deere in person and took her on a tour around Bethlehem as it was a town she’d like. She was a normal person, quiet and quite realistic. Yes she was wearing a 70s outfit but so, a lot of people wear clothing that was inspired from 70s, etc. To be honest, Deere, there’s really nothing intriguing about you in person and I wish you were comfortable with who you were instead of impressing everyone by your “uniqueness and difference”. Sometimes its not GOOD to be unique and different and it can be difficult.
It saddens me when people take a characteristic trait for granted and use it to their advantage. It goes along with, “OH I LOOK UNIQUE AND DIFFERENT IDOLIZE ME!!!111”. Um, no being naturally unique and different doesn’t automatically get people to idolize them. it scares and frightens them and you could be subjected to bullying for being naturally unique and different. Stop making it a fashion statement and find your voice elsewhere.
Esoteric Meaning of our Motto: “The Way of Light”
[vc_row][vc_column width=”1/2″][vc_custom_heading text=”Esoteric Meaning of our Motto: “The Way of Light“” google_fonts=”font_family:Roboto%3A100%2C100italic%2C300%2C300italic%2Cregular%2Citalic%2C500%2C500italic%2C700%2C700italic%2C900%2C900italic|font_style:400%20regular%3A400%3Anormal” el_class=”widget-title”][vc_column_text]One of the things I do as an artist or as most artists do is make the world meaningful. I look at the world through a prism of vibration, light and form which means half my time I spend reading and researching a wide variety of subjects and the other half is assimilating, hypothesizing, philosophizing the information which I then create something from it. This insight came to me in a bit of an epiphany of sorts and has led me down the rabbit hole of trying to figure out what this vision means to me and how to express it. I can explain what I do as an artist in a simple sentence, “I convey my experiences with subtle energy through my art” but even in a simple sentence like that leaves one hanging. This allows me to combine the spiritual, scientific and artistic disciplines. In fact this method of conveying experiences is not that different from what the ancient people of earth did. They conveyed scientific meaning through symbols, mythology, story lines and words. I just modernize this method. For example, as a semester project for one of the senior art classes at Moravian that I took in this previous Spring semester, I took an alternative scientific experiment and turned into an art form. This project’s objective was to photograph the life force energy of organic materials using subtle energy and exposing it onto traditional photographic black and white paper.
As an artist whose interested in the religious, spiritual and scientific side of things I am often finding myself diving into strange topics and discovering people that did incredible things that not many people are aware of and then I try and figure out how to visualize it and make it artistic. All of these interests have combined themselves into a weird artistic philosophy and I am often finding myself reading the great works of Aleister Crowley, Eliphas Levi, Manual P Hall and other great philosophers who have contributed to the development of human consciousness through distributing esoteric knowledge. I am one who believes in synchronicity and looks for the subtle hints and signs that appear in my life that help me guide my way through the chaos of the manifest world. As an artist and graphic designer I have taken interest in symbols and religious iconography and interpreting the esoteric meaning of it.
I had sadly forgotten what Moravian College’s motto was until Graduation when Dr. Gary Olsen mentioned it in his wonderful commencement speech. Something told me to take note of the motto and I’m glad I did. After graduation, I have been spending the Summer reading and researching more about this weird artistic philosophy that I have developed and one of the books I read is a book on decoding the Christian mythology and religious iconography: its called, “The Secret of Sion” and its written by William Henry. The book itself may be a bit out there for most Christians as it talks about Jesus coming to Earth through a Stargate and wormhole from a place in the center of the galaxy that is called Sion… But the author makes a fascinating case and supports his ideas and hypothesis with the religious iconography and symbols from the Christian religion we are so familiar with. If you’re wondering, yes, Henry does use Sion and Zion interchangeably. He is also a believer in synchronicity and likes to believe that Sion is a suffix of Ascension, which is a spiritual belief that the human spirit will transcend the physical and become one with God after it goes through a series of tribulations.
From the Secret of Sion, Henry states, “Our destination, says Revelation, is Sion, a mystical place that gave its name to Sion (or Zion), the sacred mountain of the Jews and to Jerusalem, although Mormons believe Sion is a place in America. Both traditions agree that only the “pure in heart” can enter and dwell in Sion. The Book of Hebrews chapter 12, verse 22-23 says Sion is “the Holy City of the living god, the heavenly Jerusalem, and (arrival there marks) our acceptance into an innumerable company of angels and just humans made perfect”. ”
Henry interprets the Christian religion through a gnostic (esoteric) point of view and says that, “For the awakened Gnostic, Christ is a being of light and the Christ narrative is an allegory of a universal internal spiritual experience, the Way of Light.[…] This is the ancient spiritual journey of the Wayshower, Jesus demonstrated. We follow (and will complete) this light path both individually and as a species…” According to modern cosmology we are taught that the Galaxy completes one rotation every 26,000 years. I personally found it very peculiar that the Moravian Star has 26 points. I would like to think that the Moravian Star is actually a symbol to represent the center of the galaxy, the Land of Light (or Heaven), or as Henry interprets as Sion.
Zinzendorf helped settle the Moravian settlements that became known as Nazareth and Bethlehem (as we know very well), he at the time was also head and apart of multiple ancient mystery schools and masonic orders. Could he have insight into the original teachings of Christianity and tried to spread its teachings and ideals when he settled Bethlehem after he broke away from the Lutherans? Zinzendorf, himself was an eager seeker after truth, and could not understand men who at all costs kept to the opinions they had once formed; yet he had an exceptional talent for taking on religious subjects even with those who differed from him (this characteristic is a big give away for anyone who may be a part of an ancient mystery school or masonic order).
Its quite possible that the Moravian faith we became so attached to today may have been an attempt to revitalize the Christian faith as it was originally. Looked at this perspective, Christianity, is really no different than other religious faiths as they all came before Christianity and was just an attempt to rejuvenate the ancient universal internal spiritual experience that humanity seems to be “destined” to complete (if you will). The British philosopher Aleister Crowley once said, “Man will no longer worship God as an external factor, as in Paganism, or as an internal state of consciousness, as in Christianity, but will realize his identity with God.” This realization (or awakening, “Ascension”) of Man’s identity with God is the first step in completing this ancient universal light path and from other sources this awakening and realization is expected to happen when the galaxy is close to completing a 26,000 year cycle. If you are well versed in your Mayan mythology, the great Mayan god, Quetzalcoatl is said to return at the end of a cycle and the beginning of the Golden Era.
If you have been keeping up with the 2012 Olympic news you might have heard somethings released about its logo in 2007. One of the speculations that’s been going around is that the 2012 Olympic logo spells “Zion”. With the knowledge you’ve hopefully learned from this article perhaps the 2012 Olympic logo was supposed to be a warning for what is coming; why the Olympic logo? It will be one of the most well known logos and if badly designed (which it was) it will attract even more attention. According to modern cosmology the galaxy is supposed to make a complete rotation this year (2012) and how appropriate is the speculation about Zion being spelled in the logo? I’d like to close saying that perhaps today’s logos and iconography from pop culture may be a system for conveying messages like the ancients once did and should be given a second look at what its’ meaning might be.
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