I am torn. I have been struggling with myself to drop you or to stay. Whenever I tried to contact you in the last year, you turned me away, denied everything. I may have been there for you – as they say – but you weren’t there for me. You didn’t even try, couldn’t care less. I have been told you are planning a reunion… in dreams I have been told to stay. But how can I stay for someone who couldn’t even be there for me? The pain that’s been caused is transcendent… goes deeper than anything I’ve experienced.

I told you that I stayed at your company as long as I had because I felt that there was a connection between us. A connection that I cherished. I could’ve left easily… but I felt something and couldn’t bare to think about loosing you… The fact you said no, or that you didn’t feel the same, floored me. It broke my heart, my soul. Why did I bother to stay at a place that long, to be abused that long… only for nothing? Only to be taken advantage of? To be thrown out like I meant nothing to you? When you acted like our connection meant everything?

I am torn with just giving up on you and moving on or to stay with what I feel and to stay with you. I feel for you, surely, very much… in me, our connection is still strong. But I feel betrayed. Left, forgotten, like nothing we went through ever meant to you. All the energy and strength… meant nothing to you.

Yet, I am madly in love with you. I feel very deeply, strongly, something I can’t just shake off. No matter how much you’ve hurt me, the love is stronger than the pain. Which if you do reunite with me… is probably why I will accept. No matter what… the love I have for you I believe in and I believe you feel as strongly for me as I do for you. But you could care less, care less about what we been through or what you mean to me… you aren’t just a boss, you mean more to me than that.