May. Wedding season… and I have had a few more friends become hitched this month than ever and a few more who are engaged. I have a friend who is getting married today and while I am over the moon for her, I can’t help but feel a little hurt that I wasn’t invited. We had the same mutual friends in college and while I didn’t constantly skype or talk online with her I still considered her a friend. But I guess things are different now… I get that weddings are expensive and they probably couldn’t afford more than what they did invite. But it still stings because I see all of our mutual friends attending the wedding and updating their facebooks and seeing them together… and I’m just still sitting here…

All these marriages around me have made me question about my relationship history. All of my potentials ended before they began leaving me heartbroken… or they are spiritual relationships that while love was felt was never meat to be physical. My heart has been broken, and re-broken many times before and it just makes me question who would take a chance on a bruised and beaten heart?

Then, I see my brothers’ relationship and how well he’s treating his girlfriend.

I am just at the point in my life where I am done feeling alone. There’s nothing that I want more than a companion who would be there for me and me for them.. someone who I could share my life with, take on my adventures, be at peace with and enjoy life with. I love my friends and support but I just need something a little more, a close bond…