Ever since my pineal gland has been pulsating occasionally I get random names and such pop into my head. Sometimes they mean nothing at the time, and sometimes they relate to something. As I’ve blogged about before I’ve been going through a lot of heavy emotions lately regarding a relationship that I’m expecting to blossom but I’m really in no position to be the active pursuer anymore. Real frustrating. Anyway, this week a name, Jessica, popped into my head and I thought it was weird because I haven’t been connected to any Jessicas of late. I recently joined an online social network called, Temple Illuminatus and its a bunch of people who are into the occult arts and sciences – not only that but the maturity level is decent, no fluff in other words. I posted my experience as well with a tarot reading I did on it – I never use reversals – so for some reason I felt it was necessary for me to do reversals. I haven’t been great at reading for myself lately because of all these heavy emotions clouding my intuition and judgement.

For the reading I got;

hanged man rv (shadow) – 9/wands (past) – page/cups (present) – king/cups (future) – queen/swords (highlight)

For me, the shadow represents unseen motivations in the situation and the highlight represents something clouding the situation and/or something important to be aware of in the situation.

A fellow temple member contacted me tonight about his insights into the reading and it made total sense. First he sees that the hanged man represents action in something that I don’t see having any action – something that’s been stagnated so to speak – “no more searching for answers, no more needing to wait, maturity, answers.”  9/wands in the past is someone who has been fighting their way through and trying to search for answers. Presently the page of cups is showing, in some decks the page holds a heart crystal in one hand this fellow member sees this as my intuition giving me a message from the heart (a.k.a “Jessica”). In the Future position represents the person or a person who, “responds to emotional needs, a good person to be in love with or with a relationship – compassionate – it is an answer to your prayers“. What about the queen? I asked them. “This could mean you, my friend. – You strike me as very intelligent. This person out there is very, very emotional – something that would be good for you. You might scare her away being, well, too much yourself.” Be more open? I asked. “See this queen as a shadow – yes. More your inner feelings… less talk – more on her level for now. They need this at least in the beginning. See it as a warning to still be you, but not as boldly. “ My friend continued the conversation by returning to the hanged man – “This refers to your ‘actions’ – will you take the advice once you meet this person, or will you take no action.. and blow it all away by scaring them away… without showing how emotional of a side you have. I see this as a wonderful omen.” Me too!! That’s why I asked cause it was so clear. I exclaimed. “Keep your senses open now… you need to be ready… you may have only one first impression here – or – a second chance.” After this I excitedly go search for the meaning of the name “Jessica”! Why had I never thought of the symbolic, etymological or metaphorical meaning of the name Jessica!!! Jessica \j(e)-ssi-ca\ as a girl’s name is pronounced JESS-a-kah. It is of Hebrew origin, and the meaning of Jessica is “He sees”.“YES…keep your eyes open..be ready to be YOU (from the heart)…and SEE the opportunity…and take it (Hanged Man REV)” affirmed my friend.