Um gross. First snowfall of the season. What happened to my fall weather? oh right it became 65-75 degree weather. -pouts-

Well, in other news we had to put down my 16-year old cat on Monday. He had a seizure attack on Saturday night. I found him in the kitchen and I will never forget that disturbing sight of him like that. Its been a very difficult past three months and I sure hope to god something good comes my way soon. I’m really surprised I haven’t fallen into any kind depression between my grandma dying, my heart breaking and now my life long family pet being put down. But I suppose the hope of a certain situation changing as well as a job possibility (I just got a response and but no interview yet) its keeping me looking to the future.

But its been really really difficult, especially when a certain someone keeps appearing in my dreams and causing me to wake up in a crappy mood. I want to feel alive again instead of just surviving and living the days and nights out. With all these heavy emotions its not really motivating me to do much lately.

Oh yeah and President Obama is reelected just like my cards said he would. I got as cards: page/swords – world – 5.chalices – ace.wands – 6.chalices. Pretty close race though I would say and I just remembered that I had screen capped a website design that I did around when President Obama was elected for the first time. So much has changed in the 4 years we had him, hmm! I wonder how much will change again in the next four years. This website design I created as a freshman, and I certainly would say that my web design design skills have gotten a lot better. 😉